HELP !!!!!!!!!! I AM MISSING MY ADDICTION

thanks for your feed back , I don't know if you are getting my messages. I have never been on an online anything. I have left him and its only been three weeks ,but I do see the situation a little more clearly. The way I see it now goes as follows: I met him and already had my own shit that I should have been dealing with, but didnt . He was a great distraction, and since his addiction/problem was in full bloom, he delt with my defects. (perfect breeding ground for a dysfunctional relationship). The sick part of this is....... I new something was up, I searched his truck and house , stole his phone, and followed him for years. I thought he had a gambling problem, because all the calls and logs in his phone were in a code or different language, plus he was always broke. I couldn't believe sex could cost so much, he always talked how he has never paid for sex!!!!!!!. He also acted like he couldn't even work a computer. But.... again signs along the way. A sore on his penis, he said from masturbating . I was confused ,cuz we were sexually very active then. I wonder why he needed to do that if I was their. Then him not being at work when I stop by to bring lunch. His phone had sooooooo many calls and over 1000 min a month. The funny part is that he was never on it when I was around. He didn't have any friends he hung out with , so who was he talking to? When I started checking thats when he got super sneaky. He got on another phone plan through ATT . Its a plan for business and offers many extras for answering voice calls ect.. his phone had 2 sim cards , one was locked at all times. When I would try and go to the sites he went to it was on a different server. I once found a picture of 2 women in Tahoe they were very attractive, you could see clearly they were parting and having fun. When I confronted him, he took the phone away from me and pushed erase. He had sex texts that offered him 3 free mins to eat her panties off her ect.. Finally I down loaded his phone into my laptop , through trial and error, I found chat rooms ,his screen name coolcore61, even weird games. I now am left with so many bad feelings. I really Loved him and in 2 weeks found out all this information. What I can tell you, is that it is much easier being away from him. My head and thinking are much clearer. I don't speak to him, or listen to all the lies and excuses that I use to. I can't believe this went on for 8 years. I do have a fantasy that he is going to come to his senses , and start going to SAA and get better. I truly doubt this but at least its a healthy beginning. Anyway girl, keep in touch please. I have only one comment from you, don't know if I am not finding them or what.